This one habit a week thing seriously works.
I aced it last week. Not only did I not read the back page of anything I read, I also resisted the temptation to google the result of Masterchef UK (before watching the finale) and sat through the last half of the Swans/Hawthorne Grand Final (without knowing the score).
Having no knowledge of the outcome means I can’t control my reactions, which sort of heightens the experience- sort of like when it’s been dark and suddenly it’s not anymore, dark, that is.
In terms of astrology, the deliberate lack of knowledge is power is taking me back to the purity of my Pisces Sun and Moon. It’s allowing me to feel- and I’m not so comfortable with that. It’s a part of myself that I’ve tried deliberately to change over the last however many years. Yet the more I’ve denied my essential self, the more weight I’ve put on.
In trying to escape myself, I’ve gone deep into Pisces shadow territory.
But I’m taking this one step further this week.
The habit I’m tackling this week is a toughie, but I’m going to do it mindfully and with every expectation of success.
I’m replacing evening whisky for 3 nights this week with herbal tea. I’m also replacing my pre-dinner wine with half soda.
You see, it’s feeling that scares me and the feeling that feeds my imagination and my creativity in my writing. I need to be brave enough to feel.
I mightn’t be losing any weight yet, but I feel as though I’m (finally) starting to lighten my load- and that’s gotta be a good thing right?
In bringing down the boundaries I have put in place to protect my emotions, I’m better able to put in place structures that will help me- well, that’s the theory.
What habits are you looking at this week?