I’m not making any weight based goals this year. Usually I go for an even 20kgs. This year, if I was setting goals, it would have to increase by 10kgs.
I’m not setting any goals. It doesn’t mean that I don’t have intent.
My first priority is to fix my tummy. It’s forgotten the job it’s supposed to be doing.
I don’t think it’s my tummys fault, I think it’s a function of how badly I’ve treated it over the years. I think it’s complicated by the PCOS symptoms that have come back with a vengeance this year. I think it’s to do with the extra 6 kilos I’m taking out of this year. In my experience, that tends to bring PCOS symptoms back…with extra friends.
This time though I’ve been diagnosed with a long-standing candida infection. I don’t have any of the physical infection symptoms, but I’m displaying all the internal symptoms.
So, I’m starting 2013 with a yeast free, sugar free diet- yep, that includes my beloved bread and wine. I wrote about it here.
I don’t have a time limit- this is not a 12 week plan. It will take as long as it takes to get my symptoms under control.
I’m hoping weight loss will be a by-product of this, but I’m not setting a target for it. My focus is on getting well. And staying well.
Astrologically I’m using it as an opportunity to deal with a couple of problematic aspects in my chart.
My 2nd house Venus in Aries doesn’t like to wait for gratification. I want it now- godammit!
Squaring that is Jupiter from the 5th house in Cancer. Jupiter wants more. And more. Jupiter doesn’t want to miss out.
Venus square Jupiter is the ultimate in over indulgence- I want to grab everything now- in case it isn’t there tomorrow.
Throw in trines from Jupiter to Neptune, and to my 1st house Pisces Moon (which also trines Neptune) and I have no idea when to stop. When to stop anything.
In the past I’ve given in to these impulses- to the detriment of my health. The thing with the challenging aspects, is once we know they’re there, we can choose to blame them or work them- I’ll be doing the latter this year.
Just lately I’ve noticed that I’ve been hanging on again- to excuses, to habits, to control impulses, to my weight. It’s like I need an emotional detox. I need to consciously let go.
That is my intention for 2013- goal less, but with intent.